Um. Hi.

So my whole post something everyday went to pot for like a month and a half.

I did write. I wrote poetry. I am in two minds about hoarding it to put into a compilation of poems later on in life or sharing them with the world now. Dilemma.

Things have been good but hectic. Uni is tough this semester. More work and harder too.

We are looking to move to a bigger house so having to deal with all that stress too. On top of making our current home a bit more appealing so the past week has been physically exhauating which is taking its toll. I feel like death. I do one little thing and I somehow feel even worse. But life goes on.

How are you all? I hope you are doing well. I will try to be more regular in my posting again but I cannot promise daily. Not yet.

Take care of you.

Virus

My nephew may or may not have a virus. He may or may not have slapped cheek. The doctor was unsure.

I’m just crossing everything I can that I haven’t got it, nor do I get it.

But my hands and neck are particularly sore and stiff. I’ve been more lethargic than normal since last Sunday. I didn’t even go to uni and I haven’t gone over the lecture I missed.

Oh well.

Take care of you.

wow.

I watched the new Beauty and the Beast. No spoilers. It exceeded expectations. I was enraptured. It was beaitiful and the acting/casting was en pointe. Utterly sublime. I want to see it again and again and again.

I also did my test 20% of the grade so fingers crossed I have done well enough.

The clocks go back an hour so I can finally have a sleep in. I am beyond shattered.

Take care of you

Sonnet 17

So I have a test tomorrow and a quiz due for the same paper at uni. Fun times. Had my tutorial today and could not concentrate. I had a headache and my shoulder/arm was sore I ended up writing a sonnet. Only its less of a sonnet in technical terms and more of a poem.

This is what I spent 1 hour doing instead of calculations.

Sonnet 178

The letters all blur into one

The numbers cannot be done.
 
I can’t think straight
I don’t care about interest rate.
 
Painkillers get me through
A tedious  test or two.
 
My head pounds.
The volume of sounds
 
Is loud and screeching.
I am almost sleeping.
 
Two hours are lasting forever.
I want to do this never
 
Again. It is the worst.
My calculator’s cursed.
Take care of you.

Perspective

I have lost all perspective. This arm pain feels like the worst pain I have ever been in. Probably because I cannot rest it.

I still have to cook dinner eberynight. Nobody has even offered to do it. Do they not see the pain I’m in? Do they not see me barely moving my arm? Do they not see me popping paracetamol every 4 hours?

The assumption is that I will cook. Well I don’t want to. I want to rest and cry and not have this bloody arm hurt so much. Is that too much to ask?

I don’t need this on top of the stress from uni. Breaking point seems much closer yet still far away. I am made of stern stuff and sometimes I wish i wasn’t.

By a thread

I am barely holding it together. I just want to cry and sob and curl under my blankets never to come out.

I sat in my lecture today feeling more and more overwhelmed by the minute. I almost cried. And when the 2hours were up I could hardly move my hand. I went to 3 bathrooms in 3 buildings to find hot water to loosen it up and move it.

Ny right hand, arm, shoulder., neck is a mess and my normal physio isn’t working at the practice she is doing a sports clinic so I don’t know what to do about that … or my test ot anything.

I just wish it was over.

Best laid plans and what not

So I have not done so well at posting daily.

I am seriously struggling with uni. I am so confused and don’t understand what I have already been taught and it more is being piled on each week.

I am overwhelmed.

I have had a tension headache for 3 days, my shoulders are tight, my right arm is tight and sore and I’m not sleeping well and it is all getting on top of me.

I have a quiz due April 1st and a test on april 1st and I’m going to see the new Beauty and the Beast (no spoilers) it doesn’t come out until the 30th here.

I am not sure what my breaking point is but I think I am near it.

Take care of you.

i have them all

I have all 365 things I need. Spent a good hour or so this afternoon cutting 375 (I made extras in case of mistakes) pieces of paper to the same size that can be folded over and still be big enough to write on.

I just need to write them. And find a jar. My dad is printing out a label if sorts at work for me tomorrow. Its all coming together nicely.

Take care of you

30

I need 30 more ‘inspirational’, ‘just be you’, ‘motivating’ quotes.

Have you got any favourites? Be they from book, movie, song, blog or just your own personal mantra let me know! Please *insert puppy eyes here*

Take care of you

365

So I found this neat idea for a gift. Write down on pieces of paper memories, what you love about someone, quotes or whatever and fold them up put them in a jar and now the person has 365 things to read. One for each day of the year. I have started this for my sister for her borthday next month only… I am at 82 quotes and things I love about her and I am stuck. This is bad right? I have no ‘remember when…’ section because I cam’t remember anything. This is harder than I thought. Any ideas?

Take care of you.