Stressed. Worried. Fatigued. Rinse and repeat.

Any child psychologists? Anyone know how to help a toddler deal with his fear?

So f*cking stressed, my hair is coming out by the handful. Fibro has flared-up, M.E. is also rearing its ugly head.

I have this heavy weight in my chest, it’s partially worry but it’s also a cold fury.


Not the best time for me at the moment. And things were going so well; that’s usually when it goes to pot.

Take care of you.


Well, this is a development.

So I just exercised. Like properly, worked up a sweat and everything. Doing 15 minutes on a stationary bike, 23-24 speed level, level 1 resistance.

But I feel good. Really good, not tired or wiped out.

A little light headed but I think I just need to refuel so I will have some food and water and a rest.)

This is huge. So fingers crossed I am good and can do it again in 2-3 days time.

2018 is looking to be a positive year for me, health wise.

Take care of you.

The words “hell” and “handbasket” come to mind.

So I know I said I was going to post more. I will. (Empty promises, again, probably).

I have been staying at my sisters because her husband is out of the country with his job and our parents have been overseas on holiday. She needed the company and I needed someone in the house just in case.

Turns out we are fine. Her son, my nephew, has been in and out of doctors and specialists and hospitals… he spent 3 days and 2 nights in last week and he is back in again tonight.

We don’t know what’s wrong.

The doctors seem reluctant to listen to a medical professional who knows my nephew and his behaviours and has raised a possible condition that links about 3-4 of his symptoms.

They want to look at other avenues because this condition is rare. … go figure.

I am holding it together, medically speaking, rather well. But I have a feeling it will go to shit when this is all over or when my parents are home.

Like I said, everything has gone to hell in a handbasket.

Take care of you.


I tried a new mattress last night, as I’m not staying at home. I hurt so bloody much. My whole body is super-duper sore, in a way it hasn’t been in a while.

I am also having knee pain issues, which may or may not be caused by the mattress-of-concrete. More on that later.

Summer is coming back, the wind and rain have settled somewhat.

Take care of you.

Rain! So much rain.

It’s raining. So much. In the middle of summer. Flooding and road closures, power outages… It’s taken me ages to publish this post.

Consequently I have been stuck indoors. I still have not tackled my pile of ironing, I will do it tomorrow. It is my absolute last day to put it off until.

On the positive side one of my specialists (who is working wonders) thinks I will be able to cut down on most, if not all of my medication. But definitely the pain the meds I am on. So yay!

Take care of you.

Alone. Doesn’t mean I’m lonely.

Do you ever find yourself alone for long periods of time because of circumstances?

I spent 30 hours alone yesterday/day before/this morning. And by alone I mean with no human contact except via text.

It bothered me a little bit last night, but during the day I’m doing okay.

But, my god, I was bored. I didn’t want to watch anything on tv, or a movie, I didn’t want to read or be on my laptop. I need to work around that boredom. Any tips?

Take care of you.

Not to sound cliche

But I’m joining the “New Year, New Me” bandwagon.

I don’t have resolutions, I don’t make them I don’t believe in them. However, I do have a couple of goals.

  1. Eat healthier. I have had a lot of dairy and sugar over the past week and my skin is a mess. I have never had clear skin but I know too much dairy sets it off, I don’t think the amount of sugar is helping.
  2. Maintain fitness. I’m doing okay so far. If I don’t do a walk outside because of weather reasons, I am spending a solid 5 minutes each day (so far, I will up this) walking up and down the stairs.
  3. I keep saying it, and I intend to mean it this time. I will write on here more often. Or maybe post a picture or something. But I will be more active.

I have deleted my accounts for various websites (ones I don’t use anymore, blogging ones that faded into non-existence, dating one).

Happy new year guys, may 2018 bring you all the peace you need and deserve.

Take care of you.